Choosing to love.
Updated: Dec 2, 2018
Today was one of those...horrible-no-good...I can't do this...did I teach him anything?...Is this even working?...I am a failure as a mom kind of days.
And if this is you too...I just wanted you to know you are not alone. You are not a failure and you are doing an amazing job mama.
Children have this amazing capacity to stretch us. They stretch our hearts as we find a love we never could imagine. They stretch our stamina as we struggle to live on 4 hours of sleep. The stretch our patience as we kindly tell them to wash their hands and put their underwear on for the 100th time today. And they stretch our souls and our minds - they help us grow, they help us mature and they help us see the world in a whole new way.
My little E has the capacity to unravel me - both as I loose my patience AND when my heart overflows with love. He has the ability to show me joy in the simplest moments (who knew carrying dirt rocks and pretending I am a bobcat could be FUN?). He has ALL the feelings and he has them BIG. He is so strong willed and passionate. But he is also in tune to those around him and his empathy is nothing short of amazing. He is smart and curious and creative and ingenuitive. And most importantly he is mine - and he is only here for a little while.
So I am choosing to love. I am choosing to grit my teeth and stay calm. I am choosing grace. I am choosing to teach through example. And I am choosing to be a mama that uplifts, restores, guides and values every single easy and hard moment of our days.
When tomorrow is hard will someone please remind me of this? 😂